A Treasure Has found Me
Four journal entries in, I’m already being reminded that God knows me, loves me, and has gone ahead of me with purpose. If pressure or pursuit has blurred your sense of identity, you’re not alone. I invite you to follow along—one honest journal entry at a time.
đź“– | 1 Corinthians 2:6-15 NASB
“Yet we do speak wisdom among those who are mature; a wisdom, however, not of this age nor of the rulers of this age, who are passing away; but we speak God’s wisdom in a mystery, the hidden wisdom which God predestined before the ages to our glory; the wisdom which none of the rulers of this age has understood; for if they had understood it they would not have crucified the Lord of glory; but just as it is written, “Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard, And which have not entered the heart of man, All that God has prepared for those who love Him.” For to us God revealed them through the Spirit; for the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so the thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God. Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may know the things freely given to us by God, which things we also speak, not in words taught by human wisdom, but in those taught by the Spirit, combining spiritual thoughts with spiritual words. But a natural man does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually appraised. But he who is spiritual appraises all things, yet he himself is appraised by no one. For who has known the mind of the Lord, that he will instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ.”
đź•Š | Prayer & Prophecy
Father thank you for your spiritual wisdom that is not from thjis world. Make me mature. Adjust my mind and my eyes to focus and fall in love with what is pleasing to the fathers eyes. it is you. The Fathers son. I want you to be the most precious, most valuable, most pleasurable thing in my life. The best friend I have, the most intimate one I pursuit. the best strategy and solution for any situation. the most creative collaborator, the genius behind every good thing. The joy in my life, the obsession to be in your presence. You are not a program, noty a concept, not a format, not a genie in a bottle granting me my deepest desires. Father I want your deepest desires. You are my friend, my father, my king, and my savior. Allow this reality to wreck me! Allow me to grasp how wide, how deep, and how full your love is for me.
Your wisdom is not of this age, that even the most intellectual of our time could understand. Help me to see that true value. A treasure has found me. But you trust your son in me with your wisdom that is a hidden mystery to the people who don't know the presence of the Holy Spirit. You predestined this. you declared my name and my identity before the world began. i have nothing to fear. You know my now, you know my today. my tomorrow, and my whole life. You have called me to something greater and unimmaginable. You knitted me in my mothers womb. You have prepared an abundance for me. For to us you reveal all that has been prepared through the spirit. I am overtaken by you Holy Spirit. You are my resident and all you have and know is from the Father, and all the Holy Spirit in me has and knows is from Jesus. So ALL that has been prepared is ALL that is given to me is from the very depths of God. In you I know the VERY THINGS freely given to us by God and we can see it, experience it, use it, speak it, and steward it to produce more of it. And when we unify with other believers we form the mind of the one who surrendered his life, died, resurrected (came back to life) by the power of God and freed us from heavenly dementia and relational seperation of our creator God.
What does that mean though? When I think back aty my darkest moment in my life laying on my friends mattress in his spare bedroom in 2012 utterly depressed, escaping from the world, just learning to cope with my recent divorce. feeling hopeless without a single reason to live. My heart ached, I had no purpose, no passion, no direction, no motivation to try. then you spoke. "This is how it feels with my faith." There was nothing to trust, nothing to secure myself to, I was floating in an endless ocean without any land in sight. Where do you paddle? Where is your true north? So I layed there crying and full of anger. This memory has become a great gift to me. Now i know the difference between a God near who loves me verses no God at all. I said yes to his love and my life changed forever. He prepared something better for me and invited me into recovery, and I experienced His ALL THINGS. my YES was his wisdom, his comfort was his wisdom, his provisions was his wisdom, his strength was his wisdom, his joy was his wisdom. I am forever grateful to you father. I love you.